Saturday, October 20, 2012

Unhiatusing

So why has it taken me two years to once again pick up keyboard and jot down my thoughts here? I'm blaming Facebook, which dulls my senses and allows me to sound clever in a shorter space of time. I'm not a clever person, but I do know what people like to read and in general know what effect a phrase or a phrase coupled with a video or picture will have.

Last week, however, I joined a writing club and decided I need to be writing more if I want to be able to share anything of worth so I've decided to blog again. Now, that may mean that I am on my way to writing lengthy, daily entries like I did in grad school and over in Japan or it may mean that this is the last entry for another couple of years. I think, though, that it will be somewhere between the two and hopefully more closely resembling the first idea.

I'm now living what other people call a charmed life (actual words of one friend) in my seaside apartment in Izmir, Turkey. After three years of having to listen to car alarms, cell phone breakups, upstairs neighbors and cats noisily humping at my old place, I live in relative solitude on the literal western edge of Turkey. My view is amazing and I love to wake up each morning and see what the sea has for me. some days it's choppy. Some days the whitecaps are so high that they crash over the benches on the edge of the walkway and douse fishermen, walkers and runners. But my favorite days are when it is glassy smooth and I can only barely see the dividing point between sea and sky. I squint and try to erase that line so that my view is one of a person living at the end of something and beyond are floating things that drift back and forth. The Göztepe ferry slices across the sea/air/space  and appears to just be suspended. It makes me feel as though I am held aloft at the edge of some cliff where clouds and mist obscure a deep chasm. And it's peaceful because nothing drops down into the chasm but just drifts gently back and forth as fishermen endlessly cast their lines into oblivion.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Here's how they look in their jars

Sour

Okay, okay. I know I haven't updated this blog in almost a year, but in fairness, I've been a lot better about updating my Christie blog infrequently. I'm still in Turkey. I'm still teaching - they let me stay another year - was there any doubt? But I don't want to talk about Turkey or teaching in this post. I want to talk about lemon pickle.

After shying away from jars of citrus pickles lining the aisles of the Indian section of the grocery store for years, I finally had some forced upon me. John and Michelle gave me a jar when they left for Zambia. This one, lime pickle, looked pretty good (by pretty good, I mean, there wasn't a grease stain on the label, it wasn't a dusty jar, and it looked edible. Needless to say, after partaking of some with my Lahori style chicken curry from my cookbook by Suvir Saran, I was won over. When I read up on Indian pickle and found that the aging process is a huge factor in the excellence of the flavor (Saran boasts owning a 40 year old jar of lemon pickle), I became more comfortable with the look of it and regretted not picking up a jar for one of my colleagues when I was in Kerala last year.

Well, my jar from John and Michelle is starting to run out so I decided to consult Suvir's book and see just how hard it might be to make this myself. The recipe looked straightforward enough so I ran up to the market on Hatay and picked up a dozen lemons. One turned out to be rotton so my pickle will be one short. I began by halving the lemons lengthwise and then cutting the halves in half and getting 3-4 wedges from each. Then I put them on a paper towel lined baking sheet and set them on my balcony to dry out in the sun (having reserved the lemon juice produced from cutting them up).

Next, I mixed up some whole and ground spices - this bit turned out to be a dodg-

Oh wait! I forgot to mention the most important part of the whole lemon-cutting portion - I sliced a good portion of the tip of my thumb. I'm standing at my marble counter slicing away when my knife slides a bit too far to the right and goes right into my thumb tip. As you can imagine, the lemon juice felt great on the new wound. I threw stuff down, staunched the bleeding (none got into the lemons I'm happy to say), disinfected the wound, bandaged it and went back to slicing.



-y undertaking as I don't have a proper spice grinder. I tried my mini processor but it didn't do much. I then resorted to my bamboo mortar and pestle (with the pestle that is entirely too short so my knuckles get a bit of a grinding on the side of the mortar). It took a bit, but I got most of it ground up.
I ran it through a sieve just to get the bigger, ungrindable bits (mostly cardamom pods). I added that to the salt which is sitting in a bowl waiting to receive the lovely lemon slices once they've spent their day in the sun.
Then I have to wait weeks, months, years, to taste it. I'll post more pictures when I mix the salt/spice mixture with the lemons.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

A week in the life of THIS English teacher in Turkey


My schedule leaves me little time to sit in front of my computer and update you all on my happenings here, but as it happens today is Republic Day in Turkey. As a result (and because H1N1 has hit Turkey) we have both today and tomorrow off from school. I'm sitting here on my third cup of strong Turkish tea, having eaten a hard-boiled egg that wasn't as hard-boiled as I thought. I find that simple tasks take on a new level of difficulty for me when I am confronted with a whole new set of stimuli. My mind seems to shut down and before I know it, I'm slicing open an egg with a nicely cooked yolk and a soft albumen inside.

Enough about eggs.

Okay, so let me take you through a day-by-day rundown of my work week.

Monday:
Up at 6:30 unless the call to prayer wakes me an hour earlier. Or unless the cat jumps on my head. Or unless I awaken in a panic because I failed to grade journals or lesson plan third period. I start making coffee and look through my closet for a pair of pants and a shirt that don't need ironing. After a shower and a quick breakfast, I head over to the English office. At 8:15, I head to the amphitheater for the Monday morning flag ceremony. My students sit in huddled groups, deceptively mellow and unawake at this hour, giving little indication of what they will be like in the classroom. We stand as the flag bearers come in and march down the stairs. The national anthem is played and the students all sing it in either a low register or monotone. I have discovered that this must be because of the key the anthem accompaniment is played in. You have to either sing it really low or really high and exposed. We listen to announcements, the flags are carried out and I run up to class.

Periods one and two with my advanced prep students (15 year olds) generally goes well. They're still waking up and haven't had their morning break yet so they aren't all hopped up on sugar. Our periods last a mere 40 minutes, which is either mercifully quick or ploddingly slow depending on my preparation and my students' behavior. We either read the novel we're working on or work in our grammar book. Third period comes and I get a break to regroup for 4th period. By this time, the students are their normal, energetic selves. They come upon me at the beginning of class, a wave of questions crashes against me and I entreat them to sit. I like my students. They have an energy that keeps me on my toes. They ask interesting questions. Their curiosity is fantastic and I find myself thinking back to try and remember if I was ever like this.

Period five is set up for parent teacher conferences - I've only done this a couple of times so mostly it's a prep hour for me. I take lunch at 6th period and check in with my fellow teachers. The lunches here are fantastic - we are spoiled: kofta, kebab, chicken, rice, salad, fresh fruit, puddings and cakes, yogurt, ayran, rich lentil soups.

After lunch, I head back to the English office to get ready to face my tenth graders. I teach two classes of tenth graders - each class is pretty unique. This group is my lively bunch. They move quickly through the material and would rather chat and draw and dance and do just about anything rather than settle down to a bit of reading. Yet once they do, they are engaged and ask some pretty insightful questions.

I get a period break then I have my other 10th grade class. This group is quieter but nevertheless just as engaged. They move through things more slowly but not because they lack the understanding or initiative. Rather, it's usually because they take more time to discuss ideas.

The best thing about walking into class each day? The students come to attention and stand by their desks until I tell them to sit (well, it takes them a bit of time to do this sometimes, but it's still pretty cool).

After class I help with the Beyond ISTA theater club.

Tuesday:
I dislike Tuesday mornings because I have two periods with each of my 10th grade classes right off the bat. I'm generally tired after teaching the same thing twice over the course of 4 periods. I get a bit of a mid-day break and then see my prep kids in the afternoon.

Wednesday:
10th graders again in the morning but only for one period with each group. Then I get a break, see my preps for two periods and then backup one of the 12th grade teachers after lunch. My afternoon is spent in a coordination meeting with two other teachers to plan the next week's lessons for 10th grade. After school, another teacher and I co-lead a radio club.

Thursday:
Prep kids in the morning, backup for 12th grade, then 10th graders late afternoon.

Friday:
I have the first two periods free (very nice, except for the fact that I've subbed for teachers 2nd period almost every week since school started). I see my 10th graders in the morning (I should mention we are reading To Kill a Mockingbird right now. My students know I'm a Mac user and in one class I came in to find, written on the board, "To Kill a Mocintosh" with an apple symbol with x'd out eyes. Very clever).

After 3rd and 4th periods, I rush over to the new building to see my preps for an hour. They are generally completely insane by this point in the week, but this is okay because I am too. I grab a super quick lunch then head back to the English building to help with the radio club's Friday lunchtime broadcast. Lately I've been bringing my iPod over to the co-op and playing jazz or lounge music for the hour. Then it's back to the new building for a lesson with the preps. 8th period on Friday is the last one of the week so I make that my SSR period with the students (I long for this period as it is generally the only block of time I have in the week for some solid reading).

We all head back to the amphitheater for the closing flag ceremony, get announcements, sing the anthem, enjoy the warmth of the sun and head out. Generally I will grab a drink and a snack with some of the Turkish and foreign faculty down by the bay.

The weeks fly by here. I'm generally overwhelmed but I've learned to ride the wave of uncertainty and enjoy the experience.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Back to school


Well, I'm on the tail end of a short first week of school. It's been overwhelming, interesting, nerve-racking, fun, inspiring, and draining all at once. I really like my Turkish students - overall they seem like a good bunch. Some will try my patience I'm sure, but overall, I like their energy. I'll share more once I get fully into my schedule.

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Ephesus & Sirince

An amazing day today in Turkey. We left the lojman at 8:00 am and took a bus to Ephesus. According to Herodotos and others, Ephesus was founded by Ephos, queen of the Amazons. In Greek times, Artemis became the city's goddess of choice. Then in Roman times, she was given the name Diana. Ephesus is, of course, an important city for Christians as well because of its associations with the apostle Paul and the early Christian church. It was here that Paul started speaking at the basilica and lecture halls and was riling up the artisans. Demetrius, who made his living creating shrines to Artemis, got pissed off and thought Paul would take away all their market business by converting people to Christianity. They'd be out of the shrine and idol-making business. Part of our tour today included the amphitheater where Demetrius got everyone gathered and where they all shouted their cheers to Artemis. Paul wanted to go there and speak to the people but was dissuaded - this was a wise choice as he'd probably have been torn apart by the angry mob.

Ephesus is a great place to get a fairly clear picture of what it was like to have lived in the Hellenistic and Roman periods. This city has some of the best preserved ruins - there are homes with mosaic floors, temples to Artemis, latrines, markets, brothels, a library and two amphitheaters. One of the most remarkable parts of the tour was a look at the terrace houses that went up into the hills over the city. This was where the rich folk lived. Here you could see large reception areas, kitchens painted with frescos of birds and fish, tiled floors, and enormous bathrooms.

Through an ingenious plumbing system composed of terra cotta pipes, Ephesians could have hot and cold water, fountains, baths, and water running in the latrines to carry the waste away (along with a fresh stream that ran under the feet so one could use a sea sponge and clean up afterwards).

After our tour, we went to the nearby village of Sirince to get lunch. Gary, Rena, Becca and Sarah and I wandered up the steep roads until we found a sign for the Alis Pension Cafe and Bar. We walked down a dirt path to a wooden gate shaded by a large fig tree. Along the walk were several fruit trees - pomegranate, quince and peach - as well as olive trees. We got to a terraced area and ordered beer and mezze. A boy picked a peach and gave it to Sarah. Later the proprietor's older son picked peaches for all of us - huge, ripe, sweet peaches, the best I've tasted. Our meal consisted of a tomato cucumber salad with olive oil, fresh cheeses, small lamb kebabs, bread, olives and fresh pressed olive oil. This was the sort of meal people have on the Food Network - perfect setting, perfect company, perfect food.

On the bus ride home we made an impromptu stop along the road where a woman was selling dried chilis. Her husband invited us to pick ripe figs from the trees behind the house. We talked with the family, ate amazing figs and bought strings of dried red chili peppers.

I'll follow up with some pics for those of you who don't have Facebook.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Istanbul Trip (in a series of statements - photos without commentary follow)

-I traveled to Istanbul for a three-day orientation session.
-I discovered that airport security is not so crazy in Izmir and Istanbul as it is in the US.
-The flight to Istanbul was less than the time it takes for me to fly to Chicago from Minneapolis.
-The Taksim neighborhood on the European side of Istanbul looks very much like any other old European city (with the addition of mosques here and there).
-I discovered our hotel was close to the Pera Palace Hotel.
-Agatha Christie used to stay at the Pera Palace Hotel when she took the Orient Express.
-Pera Palace is an old school 19th century hotel with lots of marble.
-The Pera Palace is closed for renovations and restoration.
-I do not know what the lobby looks like except in pictures.
-Cats are as plentiful in Istanbul as they are in Izmir.
-People stay up late here.
-Orientation can be tiring if you are still struggling to get used to a new time schedule.
-I was not taught enough in history class about neither Constantine nor the Ottoman Empire.
-I learned a song in Turkish.
-For the most part I have Turkish pronunciation down pat.
-I need to build up a lexicon of useful words and phrases.
-The Hagia Sophia is one of the most fascinating places I've ever seen.
-The Hagia Sophia contains iconography architectural elements and calligraphy from both the Christian and Muslim religions.
-The Hagia Sophia must have been AMAZING when it was first completed and was covered in mosaic tiles.
-Mosques get their domed look from the Hagia Sophia.
-The dome of the Hagia Sophia was actually a part of the Christian-era architecture of the church.
-I kept singing Hagia Sophia to the tune of "Hava Nagila" but only in my head.
-The food here is making me put on weight again.
-There are about 50 cisterns under Istanbul.
-I toured the largest.
-These were made during the Christian era.
-The pillars used to support these structures were taken from Greek and Roman temples and are quite exquisite.
-Two carvings of the head of Medusa help prop up two pillars.
-Neither head is facing the right way.
-Jackie Chan filmed part of a film in this cistern.
-The Bosphorus is beautiful. The 4 hour cruise I took was excellent.
-I want to go back to Istanbul soon.
-I have a picture of the Blue Mosque below.
-I did not get to see the inside of the Blue Mosque.
-The pictures below are in no particular order.




















Sunday, August 23, 2009

On Strays, Backgammon and Nargile

Strays:

There are tons of cats and dogs wandering the streets of Izmir. We have about three cats that hang out by the lojman (faculty housing) and there are three or four more that loiter at the south gate. They look a bit like the cats in Grey Gardens - small, with tongues hanging out and lethargic. The dogs are even more lazy, finding a shady spot and parking it for the day. The interesting thing about all of these strays is the way the community takes care of them. As I was leaving the school lunchroom a couple days ago, a guard approached me. I was about to drop off my tray when he gestured to the chicken bones on my plate. He then indicated with a nod that he'd like to add my chicken bones to the tray he was collecting. "For dogs," he said. After this, I noticed in the evenings after dinner, walking along the streets, these small squares of newspapers upon which sat leftovers - köfte, lamb, bones and rice all sitting in glops. Whilst walking down to the bay, I interrupted a cat in the middle of a dinner of fava beans by a streetlamp.

Backgammon:

I'd not known that backgammon is such a popular game here, but walk down to the bars any evening and you'll see men and women young and old sitting over a table playing backgammon - others sit and play a game that looks like mahjong. I love backgammon so I'm gonna have to get me a board and play a few games with the locals. The thing people like to do while playing backgammon besides having a drink is to smoke the Nargile.

Nargile is the Turkish counterpart to the Hindu hookah. I've smoked a nargile twice since coming here. Both times at the Garden Cafe. Our ever-friendly waiter suggested we try cappuccino flavored tobacco, so we did. After a bit, friendly waiter arrives with the glass water pipe puffing away at the end of it to get it going. He then sets it down and throws a few wrapped plastic spigots or mouthpieces on the table and we go to it. It's a pretty social event, this water pipe smoking. The mouthpiece gets passed around and the heady smoke fills the evening air. Every few minutes happy waiter came through puffing on another pipe as he brought it to the table. Quite the enjoyable occupational hazard.

We hit Ikea today to get a bunch of stuff for our apartments. Tomorrow? We're off to Istanbul for three days. I'm hoping to get to see the hotel Agatha Christie used to stay in there. Apparently it's pretty chichi.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

My first post from Izmir

Well, I've decided to keep my old blog url since most people know it. The title of the blog has changed, tho (I'm still looking for a better title, but this will have to do until then - Molly and Kristin came up with a great list but I don't think many of those will work). Back at the end of January I was attending an overseas teaching job fair. There I accepted a position teaching at a high school in Izmir, Turkey. Since that time, I pretty much led my normal everyday life with the exception of having to get a few ducks in order - passport, application for Turkish work visa, trip to Chicago to get said visa stamped into my passport, packing, flying out.

Now that I'm here, I can't believe how quickly my summer in Minnesota passed. But anyway, I'll talk about all that's been happening since I got here.

Sunday, August 16th -
I arrived in Izmir at about 3:30 pm and promptly realized that I'd failed to exchange some money before arriving. This made getting a one euro trolly to haul my luggage difficult. I asked about an ATM but it was apparently on the other side of customs. I was reduced to begging a euro off of a fellow passenger. Once I got all that sorted out and got my luggage, I whizzed through customs without the officials even taking one look at my bags, then met Chris (our school's administrator) and Vide (a fellow English teacher). They helped me get my luggage in the van and we headed over to the Lojman, or faculty housing (I like the sound of that word, lojman. I think I'm going to use it for all subsequent residences). They asked if I wanted to sleep or head out and see the neighborhood. Neighborhood, definitely.

We walked around - oh, wait! here's a series of photos I patched together to show my apartment - it's kind of hard to see, but you get the idea. It's huge! I could fit three of my Japartment in this place (tho' I'll always miss the heated toilet seat and deep tub in that place).


- the neighborhood and Chris pointed out various places I'd need to familiarize myself with - where to buy good fruit, a bakery, the post office, a convenience store, the bank, etc. Then we walked over to the Kordon - this is the area on the bay where there is a big walkway and tons of little outdoor bars and cafes. Apparently someone back in the day had come up with the idea of building a major highway along the coast here which would have ruined the area. Thankfully, aesthetic heads prevailed and the project was abandoned. It was hot and I was a might parched so Chris and Vide took me to a bar where we had a couple of beers. As we sat there, several convertibles sped by (there's still a road along the coast, just not a view inhibiting, elevated highway), with men beating drums and boys seated up high on the back seat wearing dress clothes and flowing capes. We saw about 7 or 8 in the course of an hour. The boys were smiling and waving. Chris explained that this bit of pomp was to celebrate when a 9-year-old boy was going to be circumcised. The boy is obviously smiling because he hasn't had the procedure done yet.

After beers, we went to a local restaurant where I had a lamb and eggplant kebab with ayran (a kind of salted yogurt drink) and ended with Turkish coffee. That night I unpacked and slept only a few hours.

Monday - Wednesday
These days have been spent doing a lot of walking, taking trips to the store to get things for my place, exploring the neighborhood, greeting other arriving teachers and getting to know the campus. They have quite an orientation set up for us - trips to Ikea and local shopping malls, three days in Istanbul, departmental meetings, planning sessions, etc. We'll be very prepared by the time our students arrive.

I wanted to post a ton of pictures of the Kordon, the school and the exterior of my apartment, but I cannot get the pictures to load. I Think once I get my DSL hooked up it will be quicker. Right now I'm just piggy-backing off of my neighbor's wireless - thanks Michelle!

More to come.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Seen and Overheard at the Ecopolitan

I just got back from a great dinner with Liz, Bevin, and Christina at Ecopolitan, Minneapolis' raw foods/vegan restaurant. The meal was great, the company, scintillating and the people-watching was ... in a word, interesting. Across the room from us sat a couple. Just a seemingly normal middle-aged couple having a quiet conversation. Behind Liz sat a table of two women and a man celebrating one of their birthdays. There were others in the adjoining room but I don't remember much about them.

We sat, enjoying our silly conversations when above the din a woman's voice rose and said something to the effect of, "Don't call me Barbara, whenever I'm in here I must only be referred to as Liz." (I can't remember if Barbara was the first name, but you get the idea - it was a WEIRD thing to say. I thought it was odd and after the people behind Liz left, I leaned over to Christina and asked, "What did that Liz woman say they weren't supposed to call her?" Christina laughed and replied, "I don't remember and she's still here." It was apparently woman who made up half of the middle-aged couple who'd made the loud, strange remark. Luckily she hadn't heard me and we continued with our own conversations.

A bit later, as we were eating our food, I happened to look behind Bevin to the corner where the couple sat. The middle-aged man, while the woman was talking to him, picked up his empty plate AND BEGAN LICKING HIS PLATE!!!! Not just a single lick, but several, sweeping licks! This man made a production of licking his plate clean.

Come on! Who licks their plate in a restaurant?!

Friday, January 16, 2009

Ugh! I've neglected this blog long enough!

Every time I come to this blog to look up an old picture or remind myself of some event, I am reminded that the last time I posted it was Halloween and now I'm in the deep freeze of January. Kristin also reminded me that I hadn't posted to this blog in a while. I guess I haven't had much to say lately. Lots of things have been happening, but I just haven't felt like putting things down here. Maybe this year, here in 2009, I will start trying to blog here more so people can keep up with my happenings. I have made loads of friends internationally and I guess I should start showing them more of my life in Minnesota. I'll take some pictures soon so show you what the deep freeze is like. The latest thing people are doing now to show just how cold it is is to freeze a banana outside and then use it to hammer a nail into a board - yes folks, it's THAT cold here!

Saturday, November 01, 2008

Monday, October 20, 2008

I need to listen more closely...


...before signing on to races with my sister and brother-in-law. I thought that last Saturday I'd be running a 5k race but when I got to their house and we were getting ready to go, my brother-in-law asked if I was ready to run 5 miles. I said, "No, it's only 3 miles; it's a 5k." b-i-l: "It's five miles, Matt." Okay, so ready or not, I had to do it.

Despite the steep incline around 3/4 a mile into the race and twisting my ankle at the 1 mile marker, I made it through the five miles. I've done five miles before, but not in a long time. Anyway, here's a pic of all of us after finishing the "Run for the Apples" race on Saturday:

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Kalamazoo

After college I was in a production called "1940s Radio Hour" which began with this song and was sung in this style. Fun stuff:

Sunday, August 24, 2008

I got a new Flip Video Camcorder...

...to give me greater flexibility with videos for my other blog. Here's the first video I made:

Monday, August 04, 2008

The Small House Halfway up in the Next Block



When I was a kid I once got a cassette tape of excerpts from old time radio shows in my Christmas stocking. This was an entirely appropriate gift to put in my stocking as I'd always found myself drawn to older forms of comedy, to nostalgia, and yes, even to sentimentality. I always enjoyed hearing George Burns and Gracie Allen, but I remember there being a short - maybe 10 minute - comedy broadcast that I would listen to over and over because it was so funny in such an everyday, mundane way. Unfortunately the tape did not say what the show was and I have long since lost it. A couple weeks ago I decided to do some Google searching on old radio comedies and see if I could find it. I didn't know the names of the characters but I knew the one I'd heard was a conversation between a mother and her son on the front porch of their house. After looking around a bit, I discovered it must be a show called Vic and Sade. This show which at one time had 7 million listeners (including Ray Bradbury, Ogden Nash and James Thurber), was broadcast daily in the 30s and 40s in 15 minute segments. It chronicled the everyday life of Victor and Sade Gook and their adopted son, Rush.

I got a hold of about 300 existing recordings of this show (there were over 2000 but the studio ran out of room and many episodes landed in the dumpster.

I've been listening to these shows on my commute to and from work. I'm totally hooked now. The actors are hysterical, adopting midwestern accents and attitudes without being over the top. They have such a chemistry and natural delivery, it's easy to believe they are the characters they portray. Vic (who Rush and Sade call Gov) is a bit of a curmudgeon at times but primarily a fun-loving, elderly father type. He constantly calls Rush by names he just makes up: Hog Wash, Coal Scuttle, Walnut Stain, Ink Stain, Half-wit, Margaret, etc. Sade (who Vic calls Kiddo) calls her son Willie and sometimes Mary Sunshine if he's moping about. Rush is this geeky, happy-go-lucky, All-American boy. The family also had an Uncle Fletcher who makes appearances now and then.

Through the course of each 15 minute episode you get a taste for the people who make up this small town - Mrs. Applerot, Smelly Clark, Y.Y. Flirch and Bluetooth Nelson to name a few. While the subjects are sometimes dated and quaint, the characters themselves are timeless. If you are at all interested, try these two episodes on for size:

The Vegetable Garden

Bacon Sandwiches

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

Michael


I painted this picture in 2000, less than a year after my sister and I had been out to Tacoma, Washington to visit aunts and uncles and cousins. Becky and I repeated that journey a few weeks ago, returning nine years later to attend my cousin Ron's Wedding. I'll be posting pictures and commentary about that great trip in a subsequent post. But today, I wanted to write about Ron's youngest brother, Michael. I've been thinking about this post for a long time and wanted to know what to say, how to express my thoughts about my cousin. This painting is really a marker of how long it has been since Michael was with us.

This last trip to Washington, when Becky and I arrived at Aunt Hildy and Jim's and were seeing cousins and children of cousins we hadn't seen in years, I was happy and overwhelmed and a little shy (as I often am when I am seeing people I haven't seen in years. Becky is always much more comfortable talking to people and jumping right back into easy conversation than I. I take a bit of time to feel comfortable again). I went into the kitchen to give aunt Hildy a hug. Practically the first thing I noticed, among a patchwork of photos magneted to the refrigerator door was a photo of Michael staring back at me. It took me by surprise - his frank stare and slight smile, his jaw line, unbearded, was strong and angular, or so I remember it. I hadn't looked at a photo of my cousin for so long that the emotion of his not being there momentarily overwhelmed me.

Later, I saw Michael in my cousin Laurie's son, Christopher - the eyes, mannerisms, and even his open, accepting nature - all reminded me of Michael. Even later still, as I was putting my suitcase into the room where I'd be staying, sleeping in Michael's old bed with a quilt his sister had made for him, I had further reminders of that summer nine years ago. I looked down the hall and into my aunt's bedroom where the painting I'd done for her hung against the far wall. I remember thinking about how to approach painting Michael, about how I could make something for my aunt to remember him by. I must have gone to the Institute or the Walker not long before and seen some of Chuck Close's paintings. When I blew up the photograph Jim had taken of us on trip to Mt. Rainier on my birthday and printed a close up of Michael's face, I knew that emulating Close's approach of using individual squares and filtering the image through those cells was the right approach. I had no symbolic reason for taking this approach, but just knew that somehow it fit better than something more realistic or abstract.

I remember when I saw Michael nine years ago, for the first time in several years, I felt unsure of myself. We sat opposite each other in the living room of the place he and my other cousin Rob were living in. I initially felt the distances of time and space had separated us from the bond I'd once felt. Becky and I, after all, loved Michael and as children when we'd visit would devotedly follow him around. We loved all of our cousins, but Michael was only a few years older than us, closer to Eric's age, so he was stuck with our shadowing him. He never seemed to mind us playing with him and taking an interest in the things he was interested in. Both he and Rob - all of the siblings, in fact, were enormously talented and I was always inspired to be more creative around them.

One summer Aunt Hildy had brought Michael and Rob out to Minnesota for a visit. I remember Michael taking a great interest in a book he'd bought (I think at the Minnesota Zoo) about edible plants. On a visit to Washington a year or so later, I found that this interest wasn't just a passing fancy. In fact he brewed me a tea from roasted dandelion root. I remember the heady, roasted coffee-like taste. Later, when I'd tried it on my own, I failed to make anything that came close to that tea. Becky reminded me of the tree frogs he'd caught and showed us one summer when we were out visiting. Both he and Rob seemed to cultivate artistic abilities and interests that interested me as well. As far as I could see, Michael possessed a fairly deep inner life and a reserve of imagination that I appreciated. He and Rob valued things I (probably Becky and Eric too) valued - maps and old documents, books and fantastic stories, nature, and trying to capture or recreate small remnants of worlds and eras that no longer existed.

That day, nine years ago sitting across from Michael and both of us feeling initially uncomfortable, one of us happened to mention something from when we were children and suddenly the barrier was removed. We both felt connected again. I looked across and saw Michael's eyes smiling as he was remembering things from our childhood as cousins. He even had some of the maps of imaginary places he'd invented, and I remembered again how envious I was of his imagination and talents. The time Becky and I had with Ron, Rob, and Michael that last summer was special and I'm glad we got to have it - he was gone a little over a week later.

I write this and I am initially struck by how insufficient words are in really describing memories and feelings. The second thought that strikes me is that I somehow misrepresented Michael, got something wrong or missed some aspect of him that I should have mentioned. I didn't, for example, mention his flaws and I know he had some. He wasn't perfect and I'm sure his siblings could tell stories (we all have stories of our siblings' shortcomings), but I do know he was greatly loved by a lot of people and his departure saddened us all.

I'm still left with a tinge of worry about how I'm portraying him - I felt much the same way when I painted his portrait. But then, these are my memories associated with Michael, no one else's. Others have their thoughts and reminiscences. Together they all make up who my cousin was. In that respect, maybe my approach to the painting does work after all.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

I promise ...

... to blog about my trip to Seattle and my Japanese student Mari's visit to the Twin Cities. I've been so busy lately, it's taking me a while to get to everything. Suffice it to say, I had a great last two weeks, making this week a bit of a let down. Who knows? If I'm feeling a bit creative and snarky, I may even blog about the strange bathroom habits of the worker bees in my corner of corporate America.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

On the Landing

Matt woke up not uncharacteristically early one Tuesday morning to a silent house. Light radiated through the paper blind suggesting that today would be rather wonderful. He turned over and squinted at his alarm clock rather than putting on his spectacles - just going on 7 o'clock. Apart from some chirruping birds somewhere outside, the house was quiet. There was no cook banging about in the kitchen, breaking crockery left and right. There was no sound of the butler's light footfall on the floorboards in the hall. Above all, there was no incessant meowing of the cat, Walter, who served as a trusted alarm when the clock failed. He imagined the cat was upstairs sunning himself by the window or at least perched on the sill watching the noisy grackles.

As he rubbed his eyes and put on his glasses it occurred to him that due to economic reasons he had neither a butler nor a cook - nor a housekeeper for that matter. He must have been awakened out of some dream of opulence, one filled with light treading butlers and noisy cooks. The book on his bedside table, a mystery of a bygone era, seemed to give every indication that that must have been the case.

"I do have to stop reading that kind of stuff just before bed." He thought. "It does fill one's head with the most idiotic notions." He sat up and got out of bed, his toes grabbing the soft plush, camel colored carpet. "I wish I could afford a staff to bring me breakfast and clean and manage household affairs for me."

Matt sighed thinking of all the cleaning he had to do this week. It was in fact the primary reason he'd taken a week's holiday from the office. The impending arrival of his parents from Beijing where they were teaching at university, prompted the sudden rush to clean everything. There was so much to do: there was the laundry to wash, dry and fold, the bathrooms to clean, the carpets to vacuum and a thousand and one other things that needed doing. He yawned at the thought and padded along the floor much more noisily than his imaginary butler would have done and walked toward the stairs. He knew this stirring would cause Walter to let out the most pitiful wails of need as ever a cat could emit. Yet all was silent still.

"Funny," Thought Matt, "he must still be sleeping up on the couch. No, there he is."

And there he was. Walter lay sprawled out lazily on the landing between the small and large staircase. He often waited there for Matt after being chased out of the bedroom at 5:30 (or sometimes even 4:00) in the morning for waking him too early. Matt wondered at Walter's immobility - surely he would have gotten up and started running up to the kitchen to await his breakfast of Cat Chow and water by now. Matt leaned forward and rubbed a finger under the cat's chin. Walter remained inert. Matt slowly drew back his finger and placed his hand on the cat's torso, there was no movement. He quickly lifted the cat, hoping Walter was merely ill and could be wakened, but noticed the rigidity of the feline's body. As his hands, pressed against the stomach, lifted the cat, Matt heard an exhalation of air, a kind of horrifying final sigh. It disturbed the man so much so that he almost dropped Walter.

Matt turned the cat toward him and a sickening feeling came over him. Walter's eyes had gone filmy and grey. His tongue protruded out of the side of his mouth - a morbid parody of death. Matt carefully set the cat back down on the carpet and ran upstairs to the kitchen. He grabbed a large kitchen garbage bag and set it at the top of the stairs then ran down and gingerly carried the cat upstairs and deposited it in the bag. It looked even more ghastly covered in translucent white plastic, but at least he didn't have to see those lifeless, yet staring eyes.

***

"What do I do with a cat corpse?" Matt wondered as he jumped online. He did feel concern and even a pang of sorrow yet not as much as he'd imagined he might have felt. He had, after all, only had the cat for a few months. Those months had been trying, admittedly, but in the last month or so, Matt felt that he and the pet were making a pretty good go of it. He searched for information by typing "sudden cat death" in the Google search box and deduced the culprit may have been a heart worm, that or the poor thing had a sudden aneurysm. Glancing back into the hallway, outside of the den, he could see the bag protruding where stiff front and back paws and head and neck pressed against the plastic.

"What to do! What to do!"

Then he thought about it for a moment, "I'll call mum and dad - they'll know what to do."

His father made a few comforting remarks, knowing Matt had grown fond of the cat before discussing the disposal of the body. This turn in conversation was eerily clinical, ending with this paternal edict: "Just get it buried in the back before the neighbors start to wake."

"Too late," Thought Matt. "In this geriatric neighborhood most of the neighbors would have risen long ago and even now may already peering through their blinds to see what's going on in the court."

Matt moved quickly by the corpse and to the door to the garage where he found a shovel. The thought of garage, cat and garbage bag reminded him of an earlier adventure he'd had at school, but he had no desire to repeat history. Shovel in hand, he returned to the house and picked up the bag. The body pressed against the bottom of the bag and Matt half wondered if it would hold the cat's weight until he'd gotten it outside. He carefully, yet swiftly brought shovel and bag downstairs and out the sliding patio door.

After scouting about for a proper final resting place for Walter, he decided on a spot just behind the lilac bush, far away from tree roots. As he dug, he looked around him trying to decide what he would say if the neighbors asked what he was doing. Should he confess that his pet had died suspiciously in the night or pretend that he was going to be planting flowers for his parents return? The latter notion seemed ridiculous given the position of the grave - who would plant flowers behind a lilac bush? As he dug a space wide enough to accommodate the body, he remembered his father told him to dig a deep hole. But how deep was deep enough? After about a foot of digging, removing stones and breaking roots he hit a layer of impenetrable clay.

"Oh dash it all!" exclaimed Matt, now tired from digging. "I suppose it will just have to do." As he set down the shovel and walked back to the patio to get Walter he wondered if he oughtn't to have had an autopsy conducted to discover the cause of death, but then Matt was always practical over matters of spending and an autopsy would be costly. He lifted the bag and carried it to the hole in the ground then placed Walter in his grave. He carefully positioned the cat so his paws would not stick out of the hole. It took some additional digging and some careful placement, but soon Walter was in place.

In his haste to get the cat buried, Matt had given little thought to how he felt about all of this. He stared at Walter's lifeless body and felt somehow responsible. How if he, Matt, had been a better person, this cat would still be alive. Silly thought, of course, a retributive power taking people's sins out on their pets, yet he still felt a level of guilt.

Quickly, he replaced the dirt over the grave and packed it down by slamming the back of the spade over the mound of dirt. Matt worried that it wouldn't be enough to cover a smell that might attract carrion birds, so he ran upstairs and to the garage where he'd remembered seeing a 40 lb. bag of potting soil. He heaved it over his shoulder and ran downstairs again. As he reached the landing where he'd found Walter, his bare foot came into contact with something wet on the carpet and he faltered. There would be additional cleaning up to do after covering the grave.

The End.

Nota bene: Walter died this morning suddenly. For some reason, I decided to describe the events as Agatha Christie might have done in one of her novels. I'm pretty sad about the loss of the cat; I guess this is simply my way of dealing with it.

Monday, May 19, 2008

The Awful Truth

As you can tell from prior posts, I've been pretty into classic films and screwball comedies from the 1930s. A new discovery for me are the handful of films Cary Grant made with Irene Dunne. Dunne is phenomenal in both comedic and dramatic roles, but for some reason is not well remembered. In "The Awful Truth" Dunne and Grant play a couple who decide to divorce after Grant suspects his wife of spending the night with her music instructor. In the 60 day period in which they wait to finalize their divorce, they work on sabotaging each other's new conquests.

The first clips shows a short conversation between Dunne and Grant just before their divorce becomes final. During the conversation, Grant's new girlfriend calls and Dunne answers. To cover up the awkwardness of a woman answering his phone in his apartment, he tells his girlfriend that it was his sister.

In the second clip, Cary is trying to impress his new girlfriend's aristocratic family when Dunne walks in pretending to be Grant's non-existent tawdry, heavy drinking, chorus girl of a sister. The timing and chemistry between Grant and Dunne in this second scene is amazing. She's working on two levels, first to destroy his chances with his new girlfriend, and second to win him back. The jokes in this scene are both subtle (mostly class-related remarks that Dunne makes) and slapstick (the more physical comedy).

Watch just enough of the first clip to get an idea of the character Dunne is playing, then watch the second to see her versatility as she takes on this new role to embarrass Grant: